for my sanity

7th January 2010

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I am so much more resilient than I ever imagined.

Or maybe I’m just better at pretending

or ignoring

or moving on

or forgiving

than I ever knew possible.

Either way,

I am surprised at my SELF.

14th November 2009

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she has been gone for barely 24 hours

I don’t ever want this to be my reality

11th November 2009

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i shall believe

Come to me now 
And lay your hands over me 
Even if it’s a lie 
Say it will be alright 
And I shall believe 
I’m broken in two 
And I know you’re on to me 
That I only come home 
When I’m so all alone 
But I do believe 

That not everything is gonna be the way 
You think it ought to be 
It seems like every time I try to make it right 
It all comes down on me 
Please say honestly you won’t give up on me 
And I shall believe 
And I shall believe 

Open the door 
And show me your face tonight 
I know it’s true 
No one heals me like you 
And you hold the key 

Never again 
would I turn away from you 
I’m so heavy tonight 
But your love is alright 
And I do believe 

That not everything is gonna be the way 
You think it ought to be 
It seems like every time I try to make it right 
It all comes down on me 
Please say honestly 
You won’t give up on me 
And I shall believe 
I shall believe 
And I shall believe

-Sheryl Crow

10th November 2009

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I used to think that me being a hopeless romantic was endearing…now it just feels stupid.